I suppose I can say that I'm lonely. Another reason for me to start blogging again.

I live alone in the apartment. It's also not really a place that makes me feel all comfy and homely. I just don't feel that it is my place. Which is why I really look forward to the place in Ampang. I've even drafted a document on the renovations and furnishing that I want to put in the place (ask me for it if you want a copy to comment on). It's important to me that it would feel like it is my place. It's place that I would love to be in.

I don't really connect with people that much anymore too. Especially not in the work place. I have friends there. I just don't connect to them like I connected to my friends back in my study years. I know they're friends, but they're not the friends that care. Why should they when I can't even make myself to care about others. I'm emotionally retarded.

My best friend is also married now and he's best friend is now his wife. I don't even have a best friend anymore also I suppose. That's another lonely point =(

I don't play my online games also. It just sorts of bores me now. I spend my nights watching tv series and movies.

I've been somewhat depressed since my hospitalization and I just can't seem to get myself up. It's hard for me to get up in the morning and get to work. I used to wake up in the morning, do some chores like the dishes then cook breakfast and still be early for work. Now I can't even get to work on time. I haven't been able to stick to my gym schedule since then also.

For my new year's resolution, I'll try to get myself back on track first I suppose. First thing I need to do is restart my gymming. Try to lose some fat I suppose. I've been drinking too much caramel macchiato and eating too much pasta lately. With my crew cut hair it just makes me look like a ball.