I used to be able to. I used to do it all the time.

Now I even have friends telling me to my face that I will never be a reservoir for their secrets coz I can't even keep my own secrets in check. Let alone theirs.

Is this just another side effect of my suppression? Am I trying to pin every problem that I have on a stupid bloody sickness? I mean, I can rationalize that due to my suppression, things that used to be humiliating to me is so numbed down or that my ego is also suppressed to the point that I don't even think it's humiliating anymore.

Or could just be the fact that I could have but I just can't keep my mouth shut when I start to talk about shit?

Thing is, I can still keep a secret. I just don't like giving a blatant lie. I guess I will do so though, to keep a friend's secret. I still have my poker face. I just wouldn't blatantly lie to keep mine anymore.