I wonder...am I just self sabotaging with all these bouts of honest to a fault, untactfullness, and all the rest just to have a paper shield in which to hide?

I mean, it's easy, blame everything on a trait that I have due to my emotional problems. After that everything I do will be rationalized. I am not to blame, my stupid trait is the one at fault!

It's not an excuse. If I know about it, then fix it. Don't use it as a means of justifying stupidity and crassness. I'll take it as a self reminder.